My experience of 6th grade

I am back!!!

After a month of writing 4 articles, I was literally disturbed to see that none of those topics were worthy of publishing at the time but this topic… this topic will tell you about what happened to me 7 years ago(2015) which changed me forever. Its not something motivational but rather disturbing about my past which led me to face depression for the first time in my happy childhood.

I thought a lot about whether to let the world know about this. My mind said “Its mandatory for the world to know what I went through”. It was a normal summer day of my school. I was in class 6B, really happy, waiting for the intervel when it all started. In that 2nd period, a conspiracy against me began. It was the 6th grade so you can think what kind of conspiracy it might be! My school was Saint Xavier’s Senior Secondary School, the top and famous school in Jaipur and worldwide. The level of betrayal I saw in my childhood was next level. Lets designate each of the names involved:

• Principal: Fr. John Ravi (Really Good man)
• Vice Principal: Fr. Sangeeth Raj (Adverse, Unfriendly)
• Classmates: W(conspirator 1;Thorson), X(friend long time ago,conspirator 2;James), Y(was a great friend once;conspirator 3;Robert), Z(Not known much;Mary)
• Friends: A(Good Friend;Murphy), B(Moron Friend;Moron), C(Known from 3rd grade, good memories;Lizzy)

It was the 2nd period. Murphy, Moron, Thorson, James and Robert came to me and told me that Robert had a crush on Lizzy. Like a child, what I did was laugh, made fun, continued to talk with them over a match of pen fight. By the time it was 6th period, one of them leaked it to the class that Robert had a crush on Lizzy. These kinds of things were or at least should be normal when you’re beginning the phase of being a teenager but not in this part of the world. I was confronted by all 5 during the 8th period alleging that I was the one that leaked the news. Well, one of them was impostor and I thought that should have been Moron. I tried convincing all 5 that I was not the one that did this but the 5 have other plans already sorted out.

They actually planned it from the beginning that I should be expelled from the school. Atleast, this part of the plan was not known by Murphy and Moron but in this childhood phase, they wanted me to be in the Vice-principal’s office. You heard right, if you know these kinds of things in 6th grade, your career might be in danger, at least in India it will be! The next 2 days were holidays and the circle already gave me the ultimatum that they would hand me to the Vice Principal on Monday. Those 2 days were the first most fearing days of my life. I didn’t do anything, I didn’t tell anything but still I was being framed. No motive of revenge!!!

Monday came, I tried to stay at home but finally decided I should better go else things could take a much worse turn as anticipated. Luck that day favoured the circle entirely. As I entered the class, I knew something already went wrong with me. Everyone was stairing at me like I committed a crime. Apparently, they already spread the word that I made everything up to defame Robert. I was still relieved that the thing has not proceeded to administrative level. The 5th period came, Moral Science teacher Fr. Sangeeth Raj entered the class, my fear suddenly went to crazy shit level. That whole period, I was worried that something will go wrong and it did. During the end of the class, the demon circle told the framed story to him and I was summoned to the office in the next period. The whole circle was there. As I entered, I saw 2 familiar faces, Murphy and Moron. Apparently they were there as an alibi to confirm that I commited the grave crime of telling that Robert had a crush on Lizzy. I was immediately shouted upon by Fr. Sangeeth Raj (I want this name to be shown everywhere because he deserves it). I was frightened, helpless, crying and nothing came to that childish mind. I tried hard to convince him that it was not me but seems like he had already made up his mind.

I was ordered to bring my parents the next day. That was the first day and the only day that my parents felt disrespected and I can never forget that day. If I had one chance to curse someone, I would really have cursed the Vice Principal that he experience the same pain and suffering as I and my parents had to. Well, my parents came the next day. I was summoned to his office again and what he started to discuss with my parents was my test scores and transcripts. I always scored good… like 80% but he made them look so bad that my parents felt ashamed. Next, what he said really changed me forever. He told my parents “Ankesh is abusing his classmates, bullying them and making up fake rumors”. I said “NO”, he said “YES,you did”. “You won’t speak unless I tell you to” he said. There were tears in my eyes, I tried hard not to spill one down. My parents apologized on my behalf when they didn’t had to. It was his fault and the fault of the 5 culprits but my parents were the ones that paid.

The story does not end till there. When the circle came to know that I wasn’t expelled, they planned another conspiracy which caught me by surprise. I was selected for the new Bagpipe band of our school and so I was training at that time and was unavailable to be summoned. Earlier that day, the circle told Lizzy that I had spread a rumour about her, that same rumor and as she was in a different section she did not know this before. Additionally, they also told her friend Mary that I made racial comments about her. This time they planned good enough with a backup. I was summoned at the time they both reported it to the Vice Principal but the peon could not reach me because I was in practice and my band teacher(very helpful and supportive) sent him back. The next period the summon was delivered to me and I was asked to report to the Principal’s office with a threat of Grey Card. Grey card in our time filled fear in every student because a single grey card resulted in a suspension for a week and 3 grey cards resulted in termination. Our Principal Fr. John Ravi went to an exchange program trip to Denmark and so Father Raj was given the temporary authority to attend the Principal’s business. Fr. Ravi is a good man and knew me by face and I was actually happy to hear that he was on my case but it all fell to ground. I reached out to my sister and went with her to the Principal’s office. He was free but still kept us waiting for about 10min and then called us in. This time my sister had to beg him not to issue a grey card to me and he was in pride of principal’s powers threatning me. Well, I had no choice again and it seemed that he had already planned my fate. But maybe God had a different plan. Fr. Sangeeth Raj was requested to attend to an urgent business and in that urgency, the matter was delayed and Grey Card got out of the picture.

When I was again summoned to the Vice Principal’s office the next day, I was fearful but it seemed that the day was already marked for revenge. I came face to face with the two accusers. Don’t get me wrong, both of them are good and I still follow one of them on Instagram. Well, he started the conversation about what to do with me and I got the chance of interrogating the two. Lizzy was an old friend of mine and my face came across her after 3 years and so she believed me when I told that everything was framed against me. I interrogated Mary and asked if she ever saw me passing comments about her. Both of them pointed towards the circle telling them the story. Now the tables turned!!! Parents of James and Robert were summoned the same day and they got what the Gods wanted them to get. Murphy and Moron were left out by my Mercy, though still I consider Moron a cunning Moron. But still there were no proofs that Thorson was connected to the conspiracy and Justice became pending forever.

However, I forgot the name of one more conspirator of the circle and his involvement, this one is the only memory I remember of my 6th grade and all good memories got fainted. I wanted to share this exclusive story with you guys because I want you to see what happens in the big schools. Though, the names of the schools like St. Xavier’s are on top, there is always mental pressure and child abuse happening in these schools and you should look out for your children’s mental health. Mental Health and Sex Education in India is a myth and so no parents ever deal with it but I am advising you, always ask your boy/girl how there day went.

As I reveal my painful memories of the past, I feel relieved now that someone out there now knows about my painful memories and won’t let anyone else suffer through the same. As for Fr. Sangeeth Raj , I want his name to be here so that he realizes what he did to countless children like me and others who did not have the guts to come forward. I still feel guilty that my parents had to apologize for me that day and forever will feel that way and nothing could change that fact. I am here writing for you to read only because of that dreadful day that was faced by my parents rather than me. What I can do now is focus on what things are in my hand and you should do that too! Past is the past now!